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Lord, I truly want to be able to say these words in truth with all my heart! I want my feelings and my WILL to be totally surrendered and right before Thee. May MY mind, MY understanding, MY wisdom not soar! I always think *I* know best, but I must humbly acknowledge before You that maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I don't have the truth; maybe I don't have all the answers; maybe I don't know the best course of action to take; maybe I don't know that's best for my dear husband and our children; maybe I don't even know what's best for ME. But YOU know what's best for us! May I trust in You to show us the way and to lead us down the right path. Lord, by Your grace, I lay my thoughts and feelings and PLANS in YOUR HANDS and trust in You to speak to my dear husband YOUR PLAN. Surely You will protect us if I stay under his authority (Your "umbrella of protection"). Please give me this "lay it all on the altar" kind of heart, Lord! 1b NOR MINE EYES LOFTY: Lord, has the look in my eyes revealed the pride in my heart? O Lord, please forgive me. How can I be rid of the horrible PRIDE that is in my heart? What a wretched person I am! Why do I always think *I* know what is best? Clothe me with HUMILITY, Lord! May I be like Christ! "And being found in fashion as a man, he HUMBLED himself, and became OBEDIENT UNTO DEATH.. (Phil. 2:8) May I be willing to die to SELF and my OWN WAY! May I be willing to support my dear husband in his decisions even if it means DEATH to MY OWN PLANS. 1c NEITHER DO I EXERCISE MYSELF IN GREAT MATTERS, OR IN THINGS TOO HIGH FOR ME. Really, these matters are TOO HIGH for me. *I* don't have all the answers. At times I think I do, but Lord, here I am today, and I fall at Your feet again. Give my husband wisdom, Lord, and let me trust in his judgments as I trust in You. May I not try to LEAD in "exercising myself" in these GREAT MATTERS. Lord, give me wisdom to share ONLY those "words of knowledge" that are from You, in Your timing. Then let me quietly WAIT! Maybe what *I* think is wisdom is really not wisdom at all, so I rest in You. These things are TOO HIGH for me. 2 SURELY I HAVE BEHAVED AND QUIETED SELF, AS A CHILD THAT IS WEANED OF HIS MOTHER: MY SOUL IS EVEN AS A WEANED CHILD. O Lord, why do I struggle with this almost every day? Make the "INNER ME" to be QUIET before You. May I no longer kick and scream! May I no longer cry, but may I be like a weaned child who no longer cries for his mother's milk. May I finally be quiet and happy and totally surrendered in Your wonderful arms of love no matter what the final plan and outcome is! "To be dumb...to stop...hold peace, quiet self, be silent, stand still, wait." This is the definition of "quieted". Help me, Lord! Ah..Lord, "It is good that a man should both hope and QUIETLY WAIT for the salvation of the LORD." (Lam. 3:26) May I have NO PLANS of my own, but may I QUIETLY WAIT for Your salvation! Please provide the PLAN, Lord! "Some trust in chariots, and some in horses: but we will remember the NAME of the LORD our God." (Ps. 20:7) I can think and think and dream and make plans all day long, but *my plans* could be all wrong. Open and close doors, Lord! Make the light shine CLEARLY before us. May my plans be swallowed up in my dear husband's plans - which I pray with all my heart are YOUR PLANS! I surrender all of this before You, Lord. May I behave and quiet myself as a child that is weaned of his mother. May *I* be QUIET and let YOU do the SPEAKING. IN Jesus' name. Amen. |